I'm so grateful for second chances. That's what this whole life is full of. We are given second chances over and over again.
Recently, because of modern technology and good doctors, my dad's heart has been given a second chance! It has made me realize how fragile our bodies are and we never know how long we really have on this earth. I want my boys and all my nieces and nephews to spend many years with my dad...and I'm hoping they will inherit some of that sense of humor. So grateful for my dad.
I'm also so grateful to have a second chance at parenting. I feel like I'm given second chances all the time. These boys of ours are always so forgiving and patient with me while I try to figure this whole mom thing out.
You would think that after almost nine years I would have my priorities straighten out, good rules in our home that made us have perfect obedient children at all times, I would never raise my voice, I would know the answer to every question my children have, I would know the right thing to say at the right time it needed to be said, I would understand your emotions and know what each of you needed all the time. But for some reason, it's just not so.
Later last week, I did not have my best parenting moments. I was so tired and frustrated at the end of the day. I was tired of having to ask boys over and over and over again to do something, I was tired of the messes, I was tired of too many boys loving Rudger too much, I was tired of the noise, I was tired of homework, I was tired of nagging.
Meditating helped a little.
I went to bed that night praying for forgiveness and rededicated myself to being a better mom. I looked at each of the boys and realized that I truly have the best, but the hardest job in the world. I wouldn't ever. EVER. trade it for anything. Even on those bad days.
To my surprise each boy woke up the next morning so happy and so willing to give me a second chance.
And last night for family home evening, we talked about how grateful we are for our home, we have come up with some great ways for each of us to help out in our home, so that it will be a place that we will all want to be.
And thanks to my amazing partner in this parenting journey. I couldn't imagine taking this journey with anyone else. He is always able to handle things when I just can't. The boys need him as much as I do. And he's always giving me second chances :)
I'm so grateful for second chances!
